What can I say about 2016…. there were highs and lows… generally a good year, very busy work wise (as always)…. I started my degree studies with EYV… attended my 3rd London Photo 24, and I was lucky to have won one of the main theme categories which was amazing… we had a smashing summer holiday in Minehead with our caravan…soon after holiday I was hospitalised and nearly died after contracting Sepsis from a urinary tract infection…. I attended the Brighton Photo Biennial and was privileged to meet many other OCA students. Had an interesting weekend, but the weather was foul… after this I kinda lost my MoJo in a big way, and have been trying to reignite my creative spirit since but with no luck. I had become very uninspired by my own images and overwhelmed by everyone else’s work (artists and fellow students alike)…. however I am determined to recover my confidence in 2017 🙂
Oh what a rut I am in! Plenty of reading but almost complete lack of camera activity.
Work is very stressful at the moment, which isn’t helping with regard to the stress I am feeling towards my studies. I find that am fearful of my camera, how can that be so? I love my photography, but hate my apparent lack of creativity.
I am reading, visiting exhibitions and have enjoyed my first OCA study visit. A small consolation is that others I have chatted to have found themselves in the same boat as me. I am hoping that this coming weekends study visit to the Brighton Photo Biennial will shake of the’Black Dog‘ that currently haunts me and help re-energise my creative impulse.
(I had A black dog, his name was depression, 2013)
I have the rest of next week off and want to be able to use it constructively and not waste it with negative energy. I am determined to make some progress with this course. I have wanted to do it for so long and was so pleased to eventually be able to book it.
I have a huge amount of respect with any other people who suffer in this way.